From where I was to where I am.

Hey there Junior year! Where did you come from?

It's been a great deal of time since I've written anything here. This summer has kept me from doing anything not pertaining to my job. I just had the opportunity to work at a Girl Scout camp for the last 3 months and it was amazing. This was the same camp I attended as a little girl and to be able to go back and be on the other side of things was a side of camp I never thought I'd be able to see.

This summer was the self esteem booster and confidence booster that I needed to pull me out of the funk and depression that I'd been in for the last 6 months. The way I feel now compared to how I felt 3 months ago is a complete 180. I am happy now and I wasn't before I went to camp. The people I met and the friends I made this summer meant way more to me than the people from home who aren't my friends. Did that make sense? Cut me some slack if it didn't, it's been a while since I've written. I think that part of the reason I was so happy is because I was around people that stress me out. I love being at Meredith but there's always so much competition and anger that it's hard to keep calm and be happy. In my department there's always competition to be in someone's dance and if you don't make it and your "best friend" does even though they weren't at the audition then you get bitchy and all of a sudden it's a big deal. At camp, we all worked together most of the time. We all got along for the most part and would rather spend time with each other than compete with each other for no reason. Camp changed me.

More than anything, my job this summer reinstated how much I love what I'm going to school for. Not dance exactly, but children. Yes, there were days when I wanted to scream at a kid and there were days when I was reduced to tears, but at the end of the day, a hug from camper and hearing, "Good night miss Daisy!!" from a cabin full of 2nd graders made it all worth it. If I can make a career out of seeing children every day then all this stress with school will be completely worth it.

So now that we've gotten caught up with where I've been this summer, let's talk about where I'm at now. I am back at Meredith College: my home. This is a recent development but I couldn't be happier to be here. What would I be doing with my life if I wasn't in school? I'm finally here dancing again and WHOA it's my junior year.
This is the year full of the biggest traditions. I got my lil sis's, Jade and Taryn who are fantastic, and today I started the biggest tradition of all. I ordered my onyx today. It was a mad house in the student center. Girls were crying and shaking and squealing. And okay, I might have taken part in this. But I ordered it. It's almost here. All I have to do is wait until October 21st. That's such a long time from now. Almost 3 months exactly. I just gotta keep telling myself it will be here before I know it.
So from where I was to where I am now, there's been quite a change. Today is MDT auditions. We'll see how that goes. I may or may not have more to write about. More about camp to come!